Why now and never then ?

And seeing these dates, one would get into serious doubts about why now and never then- what kept me from blogging since so long? And I would seriouslly think about telling him/her that Sorry friend, even I also am not aware why !! Well kinda confused about the reasons. Actually the last I blogged was immediately after pari's birth; and then this blog slipped into the neglected lot and throughout the semester I never looked back- not even at 12th Feb realising its been a month I had been away from my dear blog or not on 14th Feb, to write about my trip to Borivali and neither later. The indifference grew with time untill 1st April ..... it was only then that I realised something rare has happened, which I had ever assumed it not possible in all eternities and I DO need to document it somewhere! But the elated feelings came and went, without getting into black 'n white- for lack of time and for a skepticism regarding where to start off- now that it had been so looong, I was uncomfortable and feeling much out of touch to start writing again so much so that I wasn't getting any ideas about where to start.
This was rather silly and only during the highly charged times of end-semester exams I started writing after coming across my old favourite song by change:

"It has to start somewhere
It has to start sometime
What better place than here
What better time than now."

. . . realising I had been a fool to not even drop a few lines and it was nothing more than being lethargy Wishign "Happy Realisation!!"to myself, I wrote this entry about my b'day experience the same night of some exam :D

And now off I go now !!

Aishwarya!

She is simply awesome, she rocks the scene like no one else can!!

Playing Ms. Lalita 'unmarried' Bakshi she steals the limelight in the movie Bride and Prejudice. Especially the song 'no life without wife' is one of my all time favourites; the description of an ideal man being lovely therein. I wouldn't go talking about the movie since I believe everyone must have seen it at least once! If not then my only talking would be, "you have missed someting beautifully indian, real-life, down to earth and ironic!" A few downloads can be found here.

One of the infinitely many things I loved is the character she plays; her search for an ideal man; and the pains, her own psychological sequences; and friends' and family's mindsets she has to go through (or for that matter every average indian girl has to go thru'). Her character powerfuly potrays the Indian stereotypical mindset in a lovely way, which is illuminating, enchanting and and NOT off-putting. Starting right from "Poor Mr. Kohli, he has no life without wife!", the drama unfolds with the mother trying to get, for her 4 daughters, some rich NRIs, and how some of them want it badly but some (including ash) runs from the situation.

A particular thing from the very start of the song, which has, kind of, engraved in my mind is that bothred look she gives to Mr. Kohli when her mother talks about they both getting together! You wouldn't agree with me any less that she looks awesome wearing that facial expression (oh did I mentioned that girls look amazingly adorable when red with anger)!! Here are a few screenshots of her expressions [1,2,3,4,5] and some other movie stills. Have a read of the partial lyrics of the song (and incomplete; please point me to the correct words/lines wherever I have missed them):

I don't want a man who ties me down
does what he wants while I hang around.
I don't want a man whos shrewd and loud
wants a pretty wife to make him proud.

I don't want a man who cann't be funny,
............................................................

I don't want a man who grabs the best seat
cann't close his mouth when he starts to eat.
I don't want a man who likes to drink
or leaves his dirty dishes in the sink!

I dont want a man who ?[wants] his mummy
a ?[blad] head with too much tummy
I dont want a man who is dead in the head
............................................................

I just want a man with a real soul
who wants ..... quality and not control.
I just want a man good and smart
with a really sharp mind and a really big heart.
I just want a man not scared to weep
to hold me close when we are asleep.

I just want a man who loves romance
who'd clear the floor and ask me to dance
I just want a man who gives some back
who talks to me and not my ?[rack]
I just want a man whose spirit is clean
who'd hold my hand and walk the world with me.....

The description Ash gives, in this song, of her supposedly ideal man is flabbergasting. Giving a different dimension to being someone's man! In fact, for me its kind of enlightening and some food for thought! A different face of the life's prism to stare at the life from. But just on a second thought a part of it seems as if its too much to ask from a man! I mean its like wanting the best. I am soo scared, what if everyone wants only the best [tab mera kya hoga].

Me and My Serendipity!

Happy b'day to you
Happy b'day to you
Happy b'day dear ashish
Happy b'day to you . . . . .

And so it used to go for many years :)

then come April 1, 2005 suddenly and wtf - everyone forgets it I must confess that it was one of the most nbdu days for me- upcoming MLC elections, b'day bumps, not being able to meet Shweta and Meeta since long, Neha's growing indifference and busyness, no call from didi-jiju at 31st March midnite, another quiz the next day and what not .... ! and amidst all that the only thing I was looking fwd. to was my b'day! but alas. . . . . .

Neither was the nite of 31st a good one - was mostly sleepless :( I woke up early on 1st and was killing the day by sleeping again in afternoon when the watchman announced for me to come down. And being in my towel without anything on, I was cursing him like anything before getting dumb-founded to see Meeta waiting for me downstairs ! Whoaaa another big shock was waiting at the hostel gate- SHWETA!! Yes, Shweta, of all people on the earth! God knows how they both made it till hostel but it was one hell of a lovely surprise I will never forget my life (neither will Meeta forget, I guess, that blown over look of surprise on my face all her life!!). Wishes poured in as usual and not to mention a wonderful short-kurta (the same one I had thot of buying after talking to jiju a day before!) and a lovely Christian Daniel wrist watch. And not to forget a few words (well ... they were actually a few papers!)- very touching and much awaited - basically direct dil seAll of this was obviouslly more than I could ever dreamt about; hence leaving me absolutely speechless, so much so that even a thanks barely came out!

By evening my fellow sysads turned my thoughts about not deserving their trust/confidence upside-down by making the MLC post yet another undigestable reality for me- with 13 votes of 14! Thanks to all of them

Though not the above mentioned one but they both wrote another b'day song to me- an unsung, unsaid song of love only felt within :) and I will be forever grateful to both of you Shweta and Meeta for making it my most rememberable b'day ever

Just that I missed a few special people (I hope they are listening!); and missed them biiig time Donno why but no matter how hard I try I ain't able to get, out of my head, their absence on THE DAY